Today was a much better day. Thank God! I think Jackson's rage yesterday was another part of the process of grieving and today was a day of smiles and growth. Up to this point Jackson has shown very little interest in interaction of any sort. Even with his peers. I've tried playing with him, being silly, and doing all the things we do to make our children laugh. Most of the time he almost cringes when I do this. So, I've backed off...given him space (and felt like a horrible mother!)...but it seems to have paid off. I've had a few times where he has giggled and babbled, but today was a turning point. He began by reaching out to touch another baby. Then he began babbling while we were walking and at supper one of the other dads winked at Jackson and he burst out laughing, spewing water and snoot! That seemed to be the real ice breaker. He then began smirking, trying to get the older boys' attention and babbling.
I opted out of going to the Summer Palace...too hot, too many stairs, and too many people. Instead, Jackson and I went shopping near our hotel, went for lunch, had a much need nap and then went to the acrobatic show. As always the show was spectacular!
Today was a better day for me as well. I had a bit of a melt down yesterday and cried. I miss my kids and hubby so much! I wasn't sure how I would be able to handle a few more days, but somehow God has once again given me the strength to go on. Three more sleeps and I will be in my own bed, surrounded by my sweet family! Can't wait! :) :) :) :) :) :) :)